We are all afraid of something. The worst thing is never being able to admit what your afraid of. We all want to be fearless, to be able to step into any situation and not care, but at the end of the day all we have is our insecurities because you can never cease to be scared of anything in life. For me, the ability to be afraid only means that there is a means and an opportunity to accomplish and overcome something in life. And thats all life is, a series of obstacles that get in our way. To pretend that you are not afraid is not strength, rather its only lying to everyone else and pretending that your not human. To be clear, fear is not always something physical. Sometimes the fear of commitment, of emotional and mental stress or ache is what can truly get at us.
You see, I am always afraid. The constant influx of terrible situations that I have been left with to put everything back together afterwards is too high. But the reality is that despite all of these things the only way I and anyone else can get through it is to stay strong and just keep going. Whether that pleases the masses or not, you have to be you, and that means admitting where you are most vulnerable, if not to anyone but yourself. Being self aware of who and what you can be, despite what has and is likely to come your way is what is important. Not only to yourself but to everyone else around you. Letting someone or something drag you down and constantly put you in a place where you cannot thrive can be toxic, but being aware that you have the ability and you are willing to overcome whats ahead, including your fears is a reason to get up in the morning.
Fear allows us to truly live, because it is who we are. We are not only defined by what we can do, but also what we can’t, and thats ok, as long as we make the right decisions by them. You can live your life being afraid of flying, of going onto a plane. But if you crave the world around you, if you want to explore different countries and cultures, it is up to you to make that decision to either overcome whats holding you back or sit at home wandering what could’ve been. The decision is yours.
All the times i’ve been fucked up by anything that life tends to throw my way, in the aftermath I have felt glad that I was able to at least be afraid of whatever it was. To live in a complete state of numbness is to live alone and void of emotion. At least the hard times made me appreciate the good times and it should do the same for everyone else. Regardless of what others may think, to have fear and to harness it is to be truly fearless, to accept our fears and try our best to live by them, that is the human experience.